Happy Birthday My Angel…

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That special day you came was filled with so much joy,
a beautiful memory of your pure heart and soul.
Sweet angel in disguise with a golden bow and arrow,
radiantly shone forth like a misty rainbow.

I witnessed great kindness and charm,
I thank God  for the chance He gave to be your mom.
Your bravery, strength, smiles loosen the chain,
even your whole  life fastened with battles and pain.

Hearts crushed like flowers withered, scattered,
when Jesus took you to his loving home, I was shattered.
But nothing can control what fate has determined,
our life here on earth has its own beat marches as it will.

Though missing you is so hard, mom will be fine,
I know you’re up in Heaven, you no longer cry,
embracing the gift of Jesus which is an everlasting life.

 I love you so much “Biyaik”

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Today  would have been my son’s  seventh birthday,  sadly he didn’t even…he spread his wings too soon…been 4 months now since I last saw his smile…..I was sitting in the dental chair, he came over smiling and whispered, ” Mom, no crying” while placing his palm over my chest, just reminding me not to be scared, I guess, then he kissed me….. I will always remember that baby…always…..guide mommy to be brave and strong as you are…

HAPPY BIRTHDAY  biyaik ♥♥♥ mom loves you sooo much, I’ll be taking care of your chobear -your favorite teddy bear and your other stuff. I will meet you in God’s time…mom will come..

~Nodz

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Nothing much has changed

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The beautiful rainbow
that appears beneath my dark tears,
With the gentle breeze
that blows through my mind with ease.
Calmness of  flowing river,
silently soothes each time I get shiver.
Nothing much has changed,
same old flock of birds flying same range.
Name behind my colored brush
still paints same contrast, same flash.

~Nodz

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The Little Girl and His Father

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A little girl and her father were crossing a bridge.
The father was kind of scared so he asked his little daughter:
“Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don’t fall into the river.” The little girl said:
“No, Dad. You hold my hand.”
“What’s the difference?” Asked the puzzled father.
“There’s a big difference,” replied the little girl.
“If I hold your hand and something happens to me, chances are that I may let your hand go. But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens, you will never let my hand go.”
In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind, but in its bond. So hold the hand of the person whom you love rather than expecting them to hold yours…

                                                                                   -Unknown

~Nodz

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Women

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Your every heartbeat that speaks deep Love,
etched  with benevolence and real strength.
Incomparable, blessed, true gift from above,
patience is endless, to measure the length.

 

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In celebration of International Women’s day, this is to recognize all women as pillars of strength for their families, communities and country. May God bless each of one of us, as we continue to serve as the “light.”

~Nodz

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Strong Enough

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How do you respond when you’re facing something so difficult and tough or suppose, you’re driving along an empty dark highway, you get scared. Will you simply stop and just go back  or continue to your destination no matter what?

~Nodz

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What If I

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I found myself in that shelf of different stories,
in every pages reminded me of certain feeling.
Joy that spoke within, my pain and love it carries,
a tie that binds between as mind kept dreaming.
Lost in reverie,  floating in every wishful memory.

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We are all trapped in a cage called reality and we sometimes want to escape, for certain reason maybe, that’s when we allow ourselves to drift in illusions. ~Nodz

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Scar

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Inside my room,  there’s an old  empty chair
painted with scars of  painful memory.
Covered in dust of bitterness and despair.
and shadow of tears behind  its misery.
A lonely place,  I don’t want to see and stay.

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Memories which scar our lives are commonplace, memories that burn to haunt and rob….

~Nodz

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A Star….

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“A star falls from the sky and into your hands. Then it seeps through your veins and swims inside your blood and becomes every part of you. And then you have to put it back into the sky. And it’s the most painful thing you’ll ever have to do and that you’ve ever done. But what’s yours is yours. Whether it’s up in the sky or here in your hands. And one day, it’ll fall from the sky and hit you in the head real hard and that time, you won’t have to put it back in the sky again.”
- C. JoyBell C.
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Everything happens  for a reason….
~Nodz

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OUR WILL or GOD’S WILL?

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Following the will of God requires faith and action, which in turn call for risk and release. This is where things get very personal; this is where we persevere and flesh out the will of God.

I have come to this conclusion: Doing the will of God is rarely easy and uncomplicated. Instead, it is often difficult and convulated. Or…mystrerious. Because we don’t know where He is taking us, we must bend our wills to His-and most of us are not all that excited about bending, We’d much prefer resisting. That’s why Christian life is often such a struggle. I don’t mean that it’s a constant marathon of misery. It’s just a struggle  between our will and His will. Someday, when we are caught up with the Lord in glory, we will be finally all the things we have longed to be. Until then, we live in this never ending tension of give and take, push and pull

~Charles Swindoll

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Dear Lord,

Sometimes your will for us seems so hard to know,
too often, we’re  expecting you to reveal something special,
ignore the revelation you’ve already given in your word.
We believe you created us for  a specific purpose,
until that becomes clear, may we follow the areas you’ve already laid out,
as we wait for you to reveal what you want us specifically to do.
Strengthen us to be obedient to the things you call every person to do.
Then, if we happen to miss your direction for a specific task,
we won’t have missed your direction for everyday life.
May we never forget that obedience to your Word is your will for us.

Amen

~Nodz

 

 

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The Important Things in Life

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A philosophy professor stood before his class with some items on the table in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with rocks, about 2 inches in diameter.

He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

So the professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles, of course, rolled into the open areas between the rocks.

He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He then asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous “Yes.”

“Now,” said the professor, “I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The rocks are the important things – your family, your partner, your health, your children – things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter – like your job, your house, your car.

The sand is everything else. The small stuff.”

“If you put the sand into the jar first,” he continued “there is no room for the pebbles or the rocks. The same goes for your life.

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take your partner out dancing. There will always be time to go to work, clean the house, give a dinner party and fix the disposal.

Take care of the rocks first – the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.”

Author Unknown

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“Life and summer are fleeting,’ sang the bird. ‘Snow and dark, and the winter comes. Nothing remains the same.”

― Elyne Mitchell, Silver Brumby’s Daughter

~Nodz

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God Changes..

Trying to hold  the sand,  it just slipped through my  hand,
capturing  rainbow’s beauty,  but it disappeared so instantly.
Some things don’t always work out the way we want or plan,
it’s always God alone  has the final say, He handles differently.
We may succumb to thoughts of sadness,  bitterness or anger
think of a season, it changes,  continue relying on His power.

~Nodz

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Endless…

His reflection and traces buried too deep within,
the warmth of his love, it lingers, still, I feel.
Each day is a battle,  each moment a real struggle,
alone, heart continuously bleeds, my mind spin.
As the sun sets in, silence creeps, his voice I hear,
dear God, your  strength I need, it must speak.

~Nodz

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My Inner Strength…

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Everyday is a battle, can’t find words to write sometimes but thanking God “He’s” giving me such an incredible strength to live each day even without the presence of an inspiration- my lil soldier…missing him so much….

~Nodz

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What I learned….

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At some point in life we do  wish and think,
we could turn back time from the past.
To change, undo painful moments in a blink,
shifting tears to joy, better ending we simply ask
But life isn’t fairy tale with forest of unicorns,
a swoosh of magical  wand to change it all.
God has good reason, purpose from life’s thorns
this we should remember whenever we fall.

~Nodz

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My Forever….

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I write each bitter sweet memories in sky,
keep pain inside, but in every moment I die.
Your every thoughts are engraved deep down,
your name echoes here, a heavenly sound.
But I’m turning the page now, start a new story,
I’m asking God  to guide, teach and lead me.
Strength as I move my hand,  even this heart still,
in my every emptiness , only you can fill.
Forever an inspiration, my love , a hero in real

~Nodz

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