Searching the entire universe, looking for your sign, I only failed…

telling the breeze, maybe I could feel,  but there was none,

I shouted then to the rocks and mountains, calling out your name,

heart hopelessly raging against the reality.. you’re really gone.

~Nodz ~*~




Your Journey…My Words….


Do feel and listen to what it really says,
a loud thumping sound of a horse’s hoof.
Continous, running, a story that plays,
a fast beat, till it screams to wall and roof.

Whisper it to Heaven, tell all your fears,
It shed the rays of grace, breathe, be still.
It will embrace you, wipe all your tears.
God’s comfort, His hands you would feel.

Soul will be lifted, new song will be sung,
you will hear angel’s hum inside your heart.
Don’t give up, hear it from my own tongue,
been there, just stay, wait and never depart.



Chasing My Sun


Walking through that dark hidden valley, no one knows,
there’s a raging battle between heart and mind, it goes.
A nightmare I cannot escape with, my world is bleeding,
stuck inside this heart and it pierced through my being.
Letting it all go, taking a different route, it’s difficult to take.
my hands lifting to you  dear God, heal this heartache





I see you in the mirror, waving at me,
too close yet far, your love and strength I see.
Hear me I say, I am reaching for you,
I am lost, this heart wanders, carry me through.
I long to wish again, awake this soul,
fill my mind with new dreams that once stole.
Write me a story with chapters of hope,
paint my path with love and hues of the rainbow.
When will I see you again,  old reflection?
An image of the past,  once I was.

Sometimes in life we come across so much hurt and pain that will try to break us, and lose ourselves. In the corner of our heart, there’s always this seeds of hope God sprinkles that awaits to sprout, grows, flourish, if we only allow. Trust God’s power to bring back one’s self.



Let me share this wonderful poem I read this morning written by Susan Lenzkes, this applies to me now.. it’s about believing with the heart and to believe with the heart means to believe apart from what our ourselves may tell us or what our  senses may reveal and the only wisest approach for us to be able to learn is to seek for God’s  wisdom. Believing on something with the heart is about trusting God’s power  that He’s the one working behind the scene, putting everything in place for good.

Have a blessed day 🙂




When a message from God
would clear up confusion,
He could write on my wall-
or give the illusion.
But the writing that’s there,
it’s plain to be seen,
is a simple crayon drawing
that I’ve yet to clean

Lord help me to learn
I won’t be receiving
a miraculous sign
wrought through believing;
when each day I can see
and yet don’t apply
Your message looking at me
straight in the eye.

~by Susan Lenzkes


“The Music”

One of my favorite music ♥, while listening , thoughts came up……



In deep silence,
you blandly speak
In extreme sadness,
you calmly creep.
You may be that far,
out of my sight
Seems you holding,
me really tight
Rhythm touches,
my very soul.
Echoes deep down,
each time I call.
Your whisper -lingers,
it eases the pain.
Shelter me from rain,
brought me to a place
I’ve never been.
As THE MUSIC plays,
just closing my eyes
things get better,
my grieving heart
as it outcries….


 Nodz ~



A time of quiet, of reflection , so necessary to spiritual and mental health, is not easily gained  in the hustle of contemporary life. Make at least  few moments of reflection a priority.


Mid all  the traffic of the way

Turmoil without, within

Make of my heart a quiet place

And come and dwell therein.

(◕‿◕✿) Nodz ~



Loving someone who doesn’t love you anymore ,  is one of the most hopeless feelings,  there’s nothing you could have done differently, and the only thing left to do is move on.

edit lonely


You told me things I wasn’t sure of
You had given me words I couldn’t comprehend
You shown me places it didn’t exist
I can’t read what’s on your mind
Can’t even feel what’s inside your heart
To hear what it’s saying, to see what’s behind
Times are unreal, just an illusion to hold
Soon I will go and forever leave this dream.

(◕‿◕✿) Nodz ~


Holding Faith

What it’s like staying in hospital?



Counting hours ,days
sitting by our chairs.
Watching the sun rises,
with hopes inside arises.
Witnessing the sun setting
with fears lurking behind.
Staying in this kind of place
we have no other choice
but to silently pray.
Questioning the heart,
wondering, figuring it all,
an ordinary circumstance
or a destined fate to hold?
I looked around, I listened
to every people’s call.
Each burning emotions
tears surround their wall,
I pray to God for comfort,
strength may He bless,
for us, broken hearted,
we may find light and rest.

(◕‿◕✿) Nodz ~